a new lease on life!

I have eaten pretty badly this weekend and really felt it last night, i felt sluggish, tired over full and just generally yucky! and really felt that i want to make an extra effort this week so i am going to. Started of with fruit for breaky and am going to walk to work this morning, i am going to try to plan ahead as much as i can and pre pack lunches etc, now that i am so busy i am finding it easy to want to just grab something on the run! but this is not helping my weight loss! lol... i am going to start logging my food again just for this week and i want to try to make the better choices, i don't want to lose last weeks loss on chocolate and junk i really want to make it to that 80kg point soon and im not to far of, just have to remember it's 1 step at a time!

another bad week...

had a big weekend with a friends 30th and a bridal shower on sat, ate a lot of food, funny tho when there is fruit on offer i don't take it! i always go for the yummy stuff! lol anyhow i know i have put on a bit so far this week, did a 5km walk the other day to lose some of it, and am belly dancing for an hour tonight. I have eaten pretty badley the last couple of days too am going to try to pull it together today and tomorrow... start praying!

another bad day

bloody hell! i'm soooo annoyed with myself, i can't seem to just eat right we went out to lunch with the girls at tafe today to an all you can eat place (of course) and there were some healthy choices i could have had but of course im telling myself just this time is okay, but it's not! i keep sabltaging my self not funny! am also finding it hard at tafe to not eat so much cause there are 3 set eating breaks so when we break i feel like i have to eat or my body feels like i need to eat cause someone else is eating, i feel like i'm missing out or something, i don't know whats wrong with me but i know i have weigh in tomorrow and i ate horribly today and have been a lot of this week so i know im going to put on weight tomorrow am not happy with myself tho! will try to fix it starting tomorrow, for tafe i am just packing lunch 1 snack and fruit from now on

overeating

have been eating really badly again this week, i usually start of well but my about 2pm i am eating whatever i want and thinking oh well i'll just start again tomorrow, not good! i'm really over eating too. don't know why but this always seems to happen to me round these weeks in my weight loss will have to do some soul searching as to why i think! will keep trying

one of those weeks

Have had a really stressfull and busy week and have been not eating so well i have tried on occasions but sometimes things don't go as i'd like them too... will keep trying, i start belly dancing tonight am looking foward to it, though i am really tired!

the weekend and zacs b'day

Well it's the weekend again and i'm doing horribly, i am just so bored on the weekens so i automatically want to eat, i think i did okay at church but then my grandparents came down for avo tea and there was cammembert cheese and all kinds of yummy things and i ate them... it's my sons birthday tomorrow and we are having the family over for cake and pizza and there will be more cake and pizza and junk food on saturday at his party, maybee i could just not eat it or not as much, easier said than done in my world! lol but hey thats life, i will lose this weight, it will come of, but it will take a long time and you have to be able to let go a bit on special occasions don't you? well thats my story anyway.

hard day

Am really struggeling today, it's a Saturday and am home with just me and Zac i was ok till lunch but since then i just wanna eat! and not just eat i wanna stuff the food in, it sux i know im not hungry and am telling myself that but my stomach and my head just don't seem to be connecting today i think i'm really bored but so far have managed to not take a trip to the shops for junk food, all the fruit at home is gone so i am a bit lost as to what to eat, just had couple pcs of chocolate, am really trying to stay away from the shops, however i am not going to beat myself up over it i will just keep trying to do better.

THE WEDDING...

Did really badly at the wedding... mainly with the soft drink, had way to may glasses, was really thursty and there were no diet drinks on offer, should have had a plan, in heinsight i could have gone and gotten a jug of water from the tap ( wich my mum did suggest) but i was lost in the moment, also with the food there was salad and chicken there i should have had that but no, i opted for the fried rice and potato salad. I have to confess before we left this avo i had 3 chocolates too... why do i sabotage myself like this??? On the up side though i did do a walk this morning only about 3k's but thats better than nothing also at the wedding the kids were out on the swings there were 4 on at a time so i ran between them all pushing on the way for about 10 minutes, it was a good workout let me tell you, my heart was going full spead! lol so i did have a little exercise. Am a little dissapointed with my self but i can't dwell on that so i need to start fresh with a clean attitude and outlook and really try hard at church tomorrow night, (we share a meal together) i think i'll take salad or salad sandwiches or something good i can eat if theres nothing else good there, we'll c how we go, baby steps....