Long weekend woes

The long weekend's been pretty crappy as far as staying on track is concerned. Sat i had to make the rocky road and cookies for the research thing i was doing  turns out i cant have any treats what so ever in my house because if there there, i'll eat them. Its like they have a gravatational force that pulls me in and i cant say no... Plus side of saturday was that i drank my vodka with soda water instead of lemonade 🍸

Then along comes Sunday with all intentions of getting back on track. Off course there was still rocky road left so i finished that off 😭 I made a beautiful fruit platter for a healthy iption at the BBQ 

And it was delish though i still pigged out on the unhealthy cheeses, breads and muffins for dessert (i know i gain when i eat too much bread or white carbs), i did stick with water and diet soft drinks. 

So here I stand and it's Monday of the long weekend, i'm back on track today had oats for breaky, a beautiful vietnamese chicken salad roll for lunch 

And the plan for dinner is milk poached fish with veg YUM!

I got on tge scales for a sneak peak this morning (i know I shouldn't) and i had gained 700g's! WTF?! I hope to god it is just the heaviness of the food from last night cause thats super dissapointing. 

I was thinking this morning "what did i have last year and when i first started this journey that made me commit 100% and lose the weight? And what is it that I'm missing now?" I'm sure i still have it within me, I'm just not sure where or what it is. Though I'mdetermined i will not give up on this, there is no way I'm going back to be the 100kg girl I once was! 

a new lease on life!

I have eaten pretty badly this weekend and really felt it last night, i felt sluggish, tired over full and just generally yucky! and really felt that i want to make an extra effort this week so i am going to. Started of with fruit for breaky and am going to walk to work this morning, i am going to try to plan ahead as much as i can and pre pack lunches etc, now that i am so busy i am finding it easy to want to just grab something on the run! but this is not helping my weight loss! lol... i am going to start logging my food again just for this week and i want to try to make the better choices, i don't want to lose last weeks loss on chocolate and junk i really want to make it to that 80kg point soon and im not to far of, just have to remember it's 1 step at a time!

the weekend and zacs b'day

Well it's the weekend again and i'm doing horribly, i am just so bored on the weekens so i automatically want to eat, i think i did okay at church but then my grandparents came down for avo tea and there was cammembert cheese and all kinds of yummy things and i ate them... it's my sons birthday tomorrow and we are having the family over for cake and pizza and there will be more cake and pizza and junk food on saturday at his party, maybee i could just not eat it or not as much, easier said than done in my world! lol but hey thats life, i will lose this weight, it will come of, but it will take a long time and you have to be able to let go a bit on special occasions don't you? well thats my story anyway.