Another hard week

Things have been hard emotionally over the last week, my eating has been up and down (yesterday i decided it was too cold for a run b4 work so at that point i decided i was going to have maccas for lunch and also threw in chocolate cake and 4 homemade cookies - the cookies alone were 600cal's!) its like i just gave up. Back to running today and eating well. Idk why i sabotage myself like this???

This weeks weigh in: 88.0kg (loss of 100g)

Little victories

Just had to write and say how super proud of myself i am tonight! Finished work at 8pm and all i wanted to do was eat a piece of chocolate slice (i made yesterday for my sons lunches) I'd already had a piece in the afternoon and its all i could think about but somehow i made it to bed without eating the slice **pats on back 

Update

So much has happened over the last 9 months and my weight has sky rocketed as a result :( Brendon moved in he suffers with depression which i wasnt aware off prior to moving in and it made life at home REALLY hard, i never knew if i was coming home to him or the depressed him this started to take its toll on me and i found myself becoming down, not wanting to go out and my work started to suffer also. I started smoking more. We started to have problems, fighting often about the little things and one night it just exploded, lots of things were said and i told him to leave (i regret everything that happened that night) so he packed his stuff and moved out into his own place also breaking up with me at the time. The last few months we have been trying to maintain a friendship (as ours was so strong prior to dating) but that has been extremely difficult, we cant seem to make it through a week without an argument. We are now at a point where we are re assessing any friendship at all. 

Anyhow the point off all that is that things have been really tough lately however, im back on track with things at work (have even been offered to be involved in a special program which is a big pat on the back), ive quit smoking (day 34 today) and am getting back on track with my weight. My original weigh in 2 weeks ago was 91.2kgs (yes its unbelievable that ive allowed myself to get back here when my starting weight back 7 years ago was 99.2!) im currently sitting on 99.6kg (i was on 88.2 however have swapped to a more reliable pair of scales so ill go with their weight) have taken measurements 

27/7

Weight 89.6

Body fat % 37.2 

Body water % 45.8

Bone mass 6.8

Arm 39

Waist 101

Hips 118

Thigh 64

And new before pics

It's embarrassing considering not long ago my legs looked like this

I will get back there! When me and Brendon were together we committed to doing Tough Mudder  together (nov 2015) and we paid for it too so i guess thats what I'm working towards wether i do it with him or on my own! I have started running again using the C25K app the progress is slow but steady

2nd weigh in and back issues

So i lost 1.4kg's at my weigh in on monday thats 2.1 in 2 weeks... Super happy with that. Hoping to start exercising again soon but have been diagnosed with having a disc bulge and a protruding disc in my lower back so will be off to the drs next week to see what kind of treatment path to go down and what im allowed to do at the gym

Slimming

A couple of nights ago the other half told me he thought i looked like i was slimming down YAY! That feels really good :) was super proud, on wednesday at work they put on a big breakfast for everyone, i looked and then figured it just wasnt worth the points for it so i didnt touch a thing

2nd weigh in

Yes I'm still here!

Its that day again, i will be weighing in in about an hour, bit nervous as its also that time off the month where i get bloated and usually put on a kilo. Also I've never done night weigh ins before so it will be interesting to see if what i ate today effects my number i have drunk a couple Litres of water today also so we'll see what happens. 

I have been off work all last week with my bad back, am finally back to work today but i wont be able to exercise for a bit until it heals properly, thats a bit of a bummer as id like to start running again but i will be patient with myself and not make things worse - I cant afford any more time off work atm

Thats it for now, will check back in after my weigh in and let you know how i go

OMG!!!

First weigh in at weight watchers and i was kinda scared bout it....

88.5kg's YES you read it right i went from 72kg's this time last year to a whopping 88.5kgs this year Thats16.5kgs THATS TOTALLY CRAZY!!!!

TIME TO PULL MY FINGER OUTA MY ASS and work for this!

I have all my WW info to read through tonight and im looking forward to the rest of my life..

I asked the man last night if he preferred me when i was 10 kilos lighter? He promptly said yes, i proceeded to get upset and then he clearly felt bad for hurting my feelings (however unintentially) but i get it, why wouldn't he prefer me 10 kilos lighter? I prefer me 10 kilos lighter! It did bring up some feelings for me of unworthiness etc etc but thats for another day. 

I have a really bad back atm and cant exercise which is a bit suckey but hopefully i can get that sorted soon and slowley ease back into it